Sunday, March 30, 2014

Before Baby Bucket List

 I mentioned in an earlier post, we have decided we want to start a family this year. Actually, we decided that last July, but it didnt happen in 2013 so now we plan on this year.  After a good 7 months of trying we decided to take a break.  I was starting to stress, which in turn stressed Philip and so on and so forth.  We both agreed that we weren't ready to start charting temperatures and all of that other junk yet. So we stopped. In all honesty, the tick of my clock was deafening at the beginning of February. A lot of our friends were pregnant so quickly and I was starting to feel like something was wrong with me.  I know it can take around a year, and I also know that getting pregnant quickly is not as common as it might seem, but it still hurt. And thats normal and ok. But then I decided to stop freaking out about the "baby thing".  There are so many amazing things in life to enjoy pre-baby. Things that are completely out of the question, or close to it after your two becomes three. My husband is my favorite person in the whole world, I have a ride or die family, my friends are the best, and my pups...don't even get me started on my doggies. We would love to have babies. They would totally enhance the light that is our life, but the timing is obviously not ours to decide. My plan for 2014 is to count my blessings big and small. To do all of the things I always said I wanted to do. To take full advantage of our pre-baby days.  I want to make memories with my husband and plans for our future. I want to get healthy and happy. I want to be settled in simplicity but stimulated spiritually.  I want to live my life day to day instead of constantly worrying about the future. Sometimes I can't see the forest for the trees. I will reduce negativity and be grateful for this sweet life God has made available to me. I will pray for grace, patience, and acceptance. I will try every day to put out positive energy and hope into the world. We will have our time as parents, its just that we cant know the when, where, or how, and thats ok. Im feeling really good about 2014.

                                                                  John 21:20-22